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Bo: Jag tror det kan vara hon.

Johan: Ha! Han har en tendens att g? hella v?gen runt.

Bo: You need some new women in your life bubba.

Johan: I hope the irony is not lost on anyone here.

Bo: Willow!! WOOO!!!

Johan: It’s good that we make sounds when we hug. More manly.

Miguel: Of course.

Bo: Thats what I said!!

Miguel: I thought that something was going on, but I couldnt place my finger on it.

Johan: I think that there is a word for people like her.

Miguel: Wow. She’s really going around all the way.

Johan: Lost in translation?

Bo: Du har s? mycket annat att ha ?ngest f?r.

Johan: Faktum ?r: jag har ingen ?ngest f?r tillf?llet. Alls. Vilket k?nns bra. Men ovant.

Caine: No there yet.

Johan. Give me time.

The world looks grey. And I think that I might be lost. But I’m not scared. And as always; he’s there.

- Are you suprised? he asks.

- Not really. I was at first, but not when I think about it. You?

- I don’t get suprised, remember. From the first moment when we felt something for her I asummed that she would be having orgies with everybody we have ever known.

- Good guess.

I look up and I can se the stars now. Dead lights looking down on us. He lights a smoke and offer me one. I take it. The smoke has the color of blue.

I look at him.

- So. Now what? I ask.

- Not much to do. But you do know that we can’t do this again. She has been doing everything in her power to hurt you. She picked a sewer rat over you, she fucked your friend just to make her point. Then she let time pass, and then after some kissing with you, she had sex with John. The so-called love of her life.

- But that didn’t bother me. I had places to go then. It seemed kinda strange but I didn’t refleckt on it. It was all good.

- And then…

- And then she did it again.

- And with him of all people. And then she tells you. And she says that you are the one she loves. Question: do you do that to people that you love? No. She did it only to hurt you and you fucking know it. She’s laughing at you. She always has.

- But I can’t hate her. I just… I just can’t bring that out of me.

- No ones asking you to hate her. All I’m saying is to be yourself. You know, the one you used to be. Before you met her. Before you started to try to treat everybody nice. Before you started trying so hard to be the good guy. For fucks sake! You were never the good guy, and you were not the bad guy. But you didn’t take any shit. Not once, not ever. Belinda tried to controll you and she failed. In the end: it was all your doing. And if Susanne had come along then you would have ripped her damn head of for even trying! Just let go man. Let it go. Be honest to yourself and just give up.

As he talks, I hear myself repeating the words. He stops and smiles.

- Didn’t I kill you once? he wonders.

- Got over it.

- Here is were it ends?

- It is.

The sky is still clear. The pavements are wet from the rain before. I can see the moon. Full and yellow, like a giant eye; looking down on us.

- The rain has stoped. I say.

- It can’t rain all the time.

He walks up to me and embrace me. The smoke from our ciggrates cirkels up in the sky, in perfect symbios. Moving like one.