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made of stars

johan — Thu, 23 Feb 2012 07:48:42 +0000

and every morning i wake and i remember a night full of dreams and you; you were in every single one
I wonder were everybody went
I think I made some decisions that made you all go away
I think i did and said things that made you dislike me

i no longer feel any anger, and it’s all becuase of you
I still say what you always say in the begining:
I love you so much it hurts
would walk through fire just for you
just for you I would kill and hurt

the rest of you no longer matter
I have her
and thats all I need
but I would really like you to know:

never once did i mean the hurfull things I said
but you need to remember what you did
like a supernova you burned my emotions to a crisp
played with my love stabbed my mind over and over agin.

Now, I’m just made of stars
standing tall, truth and her by my side.

some days

johan — Sat, 17 Dec 2011 07:40:37 +0000

some days, are different
and they are strange just for you
some days, are wonderfull and magical

the day I met you
the day you took my hand
some days are hard
but never, never, do I want to levae your side
part of me, part of you

something different, strange, wonderful and magical.

Grattis på bröllopsdagen älskade fru, vän, partner. Tack för allt du ger mig.

till I die

johan — Wed, 29 Jun 2011 13:02:32 +0000

the sun shine most days
content is a feeling that still feels strange
i practice my mind
increasing my range

my pain you will never know
I will never tell
my eyes are cold now
my head remembers hate
my heart filled with love

I feel this world have no room left for me
and i’ll do what I always do:

smile in defience
screaming fuck the world at the top of my lungs

my feet are placed here until I die

ej betitlad

johan — Wed, 23 Mar 2011 18:50:18 +0000

Gryning kom och jag vandrade försiktigt ut i köket
hon satt där redan med händerna i ansiktet
hjärtat slog ett extra slag för jag visste att detta var början till mörkret

hennes penna mot papper
minnen som fortfarande finns någonstans
det avskyvärda beskrivet med så vackra ord att mitt hjärta det brast om och om igen

allt verkar så tyst, vad var det jag tänkte?
minns knappt hur hennes ansikte såg ut
minns knappt hur hon log, grät, skrek och kom i extas

jag tänker för mycket tänkte jag där jag stod över hennes livlösa kropp
blod på händer och över väggar
mitt ansikte kluvet i fasa och lycka

jag vaknar med dessa bilder framför ögat
undrar över mig själv men glömmer snart
dagen gryr
ingen mening att tänka för mycket

always…

johan — Tue, 15 Mar 2011 18:16:53 +0000

I still find it hard to understand
the emotions that must be growing in your mind
from time
to time

remember how you saved me
how everyday is a gift just for me

everyday your eyes shift
and some mornings I wonder why I can’t make you happy

you blind yourself in an ocean of sadness
the moon can’t find any light in the darkness that is your mind

it scares me; your mind
but then…

you walk to me
wrapping your arms around me
kissing my neck

and your eyes shift again and the person I feel in love stands there, smiling
always smiling…

- Till Lina